This morning Tim reminded me that in the past, when change was at hand, life would always shut down for me. Change equals healing here. And he is right, my healing has always been so intense that it would be what I focused on. I would give it my all and yes, often I was not able to do life because I went so deep.
I always expected my past to come up once I would be married, in ways that I wasn’t triggered before. Marriage comes with commitment, with marriage comes intimacy, and not just sexual intimacy, and I was sure it would stir up certain memories, aches and fears. And that is exactly what has been happening. And I am glad, glad that it doesn’t stop there. God has more wholeness for me, more healing and He is bringing me to a beautiful place. A place where I will want to shout out more for His glory, because of His healing work in me.
Healing is something I still seek after. It is why I have another season of healing ahead of me. I am going to do a 4 month ‘program’ called Living Waters. But Tim said something very important now… change does not have to shut down life. If anything change means moving towards something. And I find relief… the coming months I can do life, I can be married, I can have intimacy, I can be joy as I heal. I embrace this change. And maybe, maybe change won’t hurt as much this time. Maybe even the way I change has changed!
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Aug222014
5 Minute Friday… Change
I have seen it every where, read about it a lot but never participated. Writing under pressure… for some reason I think it’s time.
It is very simple, on Thursday evening a word prompt is shared by Kate and on Friday we give ourselves 5 minutes to write.
5 minutes!! And without a grammar check or editing we post whatever came to our creative minds…
This week’s word is CHANGE…
This morning Tim reminded me that in the past, when change was at hand, life would always shut down for me. Change equals healing here. And he is right, my healing has always been so intense that it would be what I focused on. I would give it my all and yes, often I was not able to do life because I went so deep.
I always expected my past to come up once I would be married, in ways that I wasn’t triggered before. Marriage comes with commitment, with marriage comes intimacy, and not just sexual intimacy, and I was sure it would stir up certain memories, aches and fears. And that is exactly what has been happening. And I am glad, glad that it doesn’t stop there. God has more wholeness for me, more healing and He is bringing me to a beautiful place. A place where I will want to shout out more for His glory, because of His healing work in me.
Healing is something I still seek after. It is why I have another season of healing ahead of me. I am going to do a 4 month ‘program’ called Living Waters. But Tim said something very important now… change does not have to shut down life. If anything change means moving towards something. And I find relief… the coming months I can do life, I can be married, I can have intimacy, I can be joy as I heal. I embrace this change. And maybe, maybe change won’t hurt as much this time. Maybe even the way I change has changed!
I love that you are here and I certainly would love to hear from you. To leave a comment go HERE !
This morning Tim reminded me that in the past, when change was at hand, life would always shut down for me. Change equals healing here. And he is right, my healing has always been so intense that it would be what I focused on. I would give it my all and yes, often I was not able to do life because I went so deep.
I always expected my past to come up once I would be married, in ways that I wasn’t triggered before. Marriage comes with commitment, with marriage comes intimacy, and not just sexual intimacy, and I was sure it would stir up certain memories, aches and fears. And that is exactly what has been happening. And I am glad, glad that it doesn’t stop there. God has more wholeness for me, more healing and He is bringing me to a beautiful place. A place where I will want to shout out more for His glory, because of His healing work in me.
Healing is something I still seek after. It is why I have another season of healing ahead of me. I am going to do a 4 month ‘program’ called Living Waters. But Tim said something very important now… change does not have to shut down life. If anything change means moving towards something. And I find relief… the coming months I can do life, I can be married, I can have intimacy, I can be joy as I heal. I embrace this change. And maybe, maybe change won’t hurt as much this time. Maybe even the way I change has changed!
I love that you are here and I certainly would love to hear from you. To leave a comment go HERE !
I’m glad you decided to join the #fmfparty – I just recently started myself. I was intimidated at first but now having a single word to meditate on is so helpful.
I enjoyed your post – I love to see when people allow change to heal and grow them.
I’m following you on Twitter now! Looking forward to more posts!
I said Twitter… I meant via e-mail!
I like the way he put that-change is moving toward something.
It is moving toward who God wants us to be. You are so encouraging to my heart!
Glad you decided to join us at #FMFparty! God works all things together for good, but we can’t get to the good without going through all the things He has planned for us, many of which are less than pleasant! Glad you are allowing change to be positive and healing.
So glad you joined the #FMFParty !! Also blessed by your words, by your reminder that change is moving us and God has a plan in it all.
YOU have a wonderful husband. I am working on some changes of my own. It is part of our sanctification. In a wierd way I am sometimes grateful for my struggles because it draws me nearer to God. Change and growth hurt! But I never want to miss out on God’s blessings. Thanks again for your sweet intimate sharing.