trust – As for me, I will always have Hope

Yes, crises continues in our home: A boy locked inside his room. A boy choosing not to connect.

But what a big God we have. He is not asking me to do anything that He hasn’t done Himself. I am to love a boy who’s really not that lovable (you know what I mean right?). He is asking me to connect with someone who does not want to connect with me. He is asking me to love on a boy who tramples on my heart. Being ignored hurts deeply (at least in my case.)

To love when it’s thrown back in your face is painful, and yet, that is what God is calling me to. But only because He knows it can be done!

I am rising above myself. It is powerful. It is an honor. It is also painful. There is hardship: My body is full of stress. My nights lack peaceful sleep. And I depend on God, because I am selfish.

It is my opinion we are selfish. I think we tend to focus on the self: What can I get? How can I feel good? But we are called to rise above ourselves, which can only be done through God ~ the source.

We are called to something beautiful, painful, but beautiful !

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My Father woke me up this morning with a thought… ” I can not make anything happen. “

I try in life. I see a lack or malfunction and I try to fix it. I feel I always have a responsibility. Even though I have a powerful and loving God, I feel there is always a part I have to play. I cannot just sit around and wait for things to happen.

So I try to fix the health issues I have. I try to find the glitch to why I am not sleeping and I try to find a ‘cure’. I approach people to see if they could be a potential friend. I see the lack… and I do what I can.

I am reminded of meeting Tim. For the longest time I feared men. I wasn’t going on dates, didn’t even talk with guys… how on earth would I go from that to getting married? It took lots of effort on my end. I sought out healing, I took this singles course in church and I read this book. By the time Tim and I met, I was ready! I did my part.

But lately I have had the thought that I can actually not make anything happen. I am reminded of meeting Melissa. I had just become a Christian and did not have one single Christian friend. God had me sit next to Melissa in church one morning and we hit it off. I didn’t even know I had the need. It was God’s doing. God provided.

Again I think of meeting Tim. All though I got ready for him, there is no way I could have made us meet. I could not have picked out the right husband. One unexpected church morning, visiting church in the US, we ended up sitting next to one another and we hit it off. It was that simple and so very God appointed.

Tim and I visit house after house, apartment after apartment to find the right place near church and community. We feel a deep desire to move. It takes a lot of energy and it is very discouraging. We were both reminded that we do our part, but in the end it is God who has a home already picked out for us. It is God who has the finances lined up. It is God who has picked out the people we are supposed to live next to and love.

And so today when I lack… I will probably try to make things happens. I will play my part but it is VERY IMPORTANT to remember that we ourselves do not make things happen. Nor do we want to I think. It is so much better when we wait and let God unfold our story. God reminded me: ” You Do ! “

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