This morning I really need my time with God. I slept little last night. My night was filled with tormenting dreams yet again. The dreams make a whole lot of sense, I am processing emotions that are within. Getting up like this is very very hard. I am tired, I feel exhausted and the day just doesn’t seem bright. The day feels like a task. There is no joy.
I haven’t slept well for weeks on end (I should probably say months on end.) There was an entire month I was without sleep. Lately I get some hours here and there. Ever been without sleep? Well, it’ll change your outlook on life.
So I got up and decided to climb behind the computer and read some blog posts of some dear internet friends of mine (Vicky and Holley for instance). The posts I ran into were all about making a conscious choice about focusing on beauty and blessings. I tell you, that is HARD when you get up in the morning the way I do, with little to no sleep. That is why I went to the computer in the first place. It was hard to go sit on that beloved porch and seek God. But the posts I read awakened some needed discipline. If I want a shot at this day… it’ll start right there on that porch and no where else.
Like Vicky wrote: “It takes effort to turn our thoughts back to blessings.“
It really does! But it really is very important. I have done everything I can to change my sleeping problems, and other issues I am dealing with for that matter. I have taken melatonin. I exercise. I eat healthy. I take other supplements. I get counsel if I need it. I pray. Tim and I battle this in prayer like never before. I sit with God. I plead with God. And there is nothing more I can do. I rest my case. And it brings me to God. Apparently I can’t change this problem in my life. Apparently it is not up to me to do so. It is time to sit with God. Plain and simple but oh so very hard to do. And so when it is dark, when joy is no where to be found, when I am just really begging God to take of the oppression off of me… I need to look at other things. Not at my current status but at the past and where I have come from, I need to look at the future and see all that God can do, and I AM in the now, I see the beauty and I count my blessings.
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Aug062014
A discipline
This morning I really need my time with God. I slept little last night. My night was filled with tormenting dreams yet again. The dreams make a whole lot of sense, I am processing emotions that are within. Getting up like this is very very hard. I am tired, I feel exhausted and the day just doesn’t seem bright. The day feels like a task. There is no joy.
I haven’t slept well for weeks on end (I should probably say months on end.) There was an entire month I was without sleep. Lately I get some hours here and there. Ever been without sleep? Well, it’ll change your outlook on life.
So I got up and decided to climb behind the computer and read some blog posts of some dear internet friends of mine (Vicky and Holley for instance). The posts I ran into were all about making a conscious choice about focusing on beauty and blessings. I tell you, that is HARD when you get up in the morning the way I do, with little to no sleep. That is why I went to the computer in the first place. It was hard to go sit on that beloved porch and seek God. But the posts I read awakened some needed discipline. If I want a shot at this day… it’ll start right there on that porch and no where else.
Like Vicky wrote: “It takes effort to turn our thoughts back to blessings.“
It really does! But it really is very important. I have done everything I can to change my sleeping problems, and other issues I am dealing with for that matter. I have taken melatonin. I exercise. I eat healthy. I take other supplements. I get counsel if I need it. I pray. Tim and I battle this in prayer like never before. I sit with God. I plead with God. And there is nothing more I can do. I rest my case. And it brings me to God. Apparently I can’t change this problem in my life. Apparently it is not up to me to do so. It is time to sit with God. Plain and simple but oh so very hard to do. And so when it is dark, when joy is no where to be found, when I am just really begging God to take of the oppression off of me… I need to look at other things. Not at my current status but at the past and where I have come from, I need to look at the future and see all that God can do, and I AM in the now, I see the beauty and I count my blessings.
I love that you are here, and I certainly would love to hear from you. To leave a comment go HERE !
This was also shared at Holley’s Coffee For Your Heart. To read more personal stories or get encouraged, go HERE !
