This morning Tim reminded me that in the past, when change was at hand, life would always shut down for me. Change equals healing here. And he is right, my healing has always been so intense that it would be what I focused on. I would give it my all and yes, often I was not able to do life because I went so deep.
I always expected my past to come up once I would be married, in ways that I wasn’t triggered before. Marriage comes with commitment, with marriage comes intimacy, and not just sexual intimacy, and I was sure it would stir up certain memories, aches and fears. And that is exactly what has been happening. And I am glad, glad that it doesn’t stop there. God has more wholeness for me, more healing and He is bringing me to a beautiful place. A place where I will want to shout out more for His glory, because of His healing work in me.
Healing is something I still seek after. It is why I have another season of healing ahead of me. I am going to do a 4 month ‘program’ called Living Waters. But Tim said something very important now… change does not have to shut down life. If anything change means moving towards something. And I find relief… the coming months I can do life, I can be married, I can have intimacy, I can be joy as I heal. I embrace this change. And maybe, maybe change won’t hurt as much this time. Maybe even the way I change has changed!
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Aug222014
5 Minute Friday… Change
I have seen it every where, read about it a lot but never participated. Writing under pressure… for some reason I think it’s time.
It is very simple, on Thursday evening a word prompt is shared by Kate and on Friday we give ourselves 5 minutes to write.
5 minutes!! And without a grammar check or editing we post whatever came to our creative minds…
This week’s word is CHANGE…
This morning Tim reminded me that in the past, when change was at hand, life would always shut down for me. Change equals healing here. And he is right, my healing has always been so intense that it would be what I focused on. I would give it my all and yes, often I was not able to do life because I went so deep.
I always expected my past to come up once I would be married, in ways that I wasn’t triggered before. Marriage comes with commitment, with marriage comes intimacy, and not just sexual intimacy, and I was sure it would stir up certain memories, aches and fears. And that is exactly what has been happening. And I am glad, glad that it doesn’t stop there. God has more wholeness for me, more healing and He is bringing me to a beautiful place. A place where I will want to shout out more for His glory, because of His healing work in me.
Healing is something I still seek after. It is why I have another season of healing ahead of me. I am going to do a 4 month ‘program’ called Living Waters. But Tim said something very important now… change does not have to shut down life. If anything change means moving towards something. And I find relief… the coming months I can do life, I can be married, I can have intimacy, I can be joy as I heal. I embrace this change. And maybe, maybe change won’t hurt as much this time. Maybe even the way I change has changed!
I love that you are here and I certainly would love to hear from you. To leave a comment go HERE !
This morning Tim reminded me that in the past, when change was at hand, life would always shut down for me. Change equals healing here. And he is right, my healing has always been so intense that it would be what I focused on. I would give it my all and yes, often I was not able to do life because I went so deep.
I always expected my past to come up once I would be married, in ways that I wasn’t triggered before. Marriage comes with commitment, with marriage comes intimacy, and not just sexual intimacy, and I was sure it would stir up certain memories, aches and fears. And that is exactly what has been happening. And I am glad, glad that it doesn’t stop there. God has more wholeness for me, more healing and He is bringing me to a beautiful place. A place where I will want to shout out more for His glory, because of His healing work in me.
Healing is something I still seek after. It is why I have another season of healing ahead of me. I am going to do a 4 month ‘program’ called Living Waters. But Tim said something very important now… change does not have to shut down life. If anything change means moving towards something. And I find relief… the coming months I can do life, I can be married, I can have intimacy, I can be joy as I heal. I embrace this change. And maybe, maybe change won’t hurt as much this time. Maybe even the way I change has changed!
I love that you are here and I certainly would love to hear from you. To leave a comment go HERE !
